God’s Answered Prayer Manifested Right Before Your Eyes

I just want to say thank you so much to everyone who was praying for us this week, and let me tell you about how God worked in our lives this week and how HE manifested his miracles in our lives!!!!

I had a screw in my foot that I had NO clue about and then also stepped on a hair clip that I was trying to get out of the package, dropped it, tripped and stepped on it. very fluke, it went through my shoe, as did the screw, and the screw I didn’t know about, so I had no clue about how long it had been there, I found it when I went to wash my tennis shoes. We went in wound care app. Dr’s appt on Wednesday and they explained to me and then told me to expect possible surgery because the screw had hit the bone, and I was placed in the hospital on major IV antibiotics..

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Okay, back to the prayer warriors, on Thursday, they told me that there was a no surgery expected, but 6 weeks of Long Term Care on IV Antibiotics,to the tune of 700$ for supplies and medications…
We prayed, others prayed, we knew we couldn’t afford the 700$, I KNEW I couldn’t go 6 weeks Long Term Care, because of my dog, and because of my claustrophobia, etc, and I just cried and prayed all day, because it just could not happen God knew my fears, He KNOWS my fears
The next morning, they came in and said, just 2 weeks of IV antibiotics at LT Residential Care (I said Thank you God) God was answering Prayers, left and right,,,I know he was answering prayers!!! So I sent out another prayer message and messaged my friends on FB, and after many prayers between my husband and I on Friday, we wake up on Saturday to Dr K coming in on saying you can go home, with NO IV antibiotics, this has all been Staff Responsive and as far as I’m concerned you can do this with just Bactrim,, Nothing IV! It’s all good!!!

No IV’s, NO Long Term Residential Care, , it’s just me, my pills, and home health care.

Did I say nothing.  Oh how much I was blessing God and saying thank you and the cost of this 5.15$   Yes that’s right (out of pocket)    I am sure there is more, but that’s the other of pocket costs.    I am just so in awe of all of those of you who prayed, and who were praying 

two people I must mention because they don’t know me.. they don’t know me from Adam.  But they prayed for me faithfully, every single day  Tricia Goyer and Kendra GIllilan…….  I just cannot thank you ladies enough

To Main Street Baptist Church as alway, you are my rock and my home.  I thank you so much for all the prayers, the love and all the tests, emails, calls and love you all send!

To all my friends!  Amber, Celeste, Heather, Theresa, Mitzi,   God bless you all.  you all are the bomb and I love you so much

To my family!!, oh my goodness, I can’t even do this without you!!!  thank you so much

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The Memory Jar – Book Review

I LOVED this book, there are just no other words to describe how much I enjoyed this book.

Filled with a certain suspense, a great amount of love for others, and God, what more can you ask for in a book?  The Memory Jar has all that and more.

Tricia has a way with spilling words on the page, that make you look inside yourself and think about what would you do, what could you or what should you do. (Although I don’t like the word should and it’s a negative word) in this aspect, she’s bang on.

Not to spoil the ending or anything, but let’s just say many heartaches in memories sometimes, and those memories when used to help others, can be a negative turned positive.  Even if YOU are the one they help.

I love the idea of a Memory Jar also.

here are some great ideas for your own Memory Jar  http://www.pinterest.com/fenotavel/memory-jar/   One of my goals is to do this with the younger set of my grandchildren, that I affectionately call the “littles”  However, they aren’t quite so little anymore as the youngest informs me..

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The Memory Jar – Tricia Goyer

 

The Memory Jar follows Sarah along her path of broken dreams, completed dreams, broken hearts, love filled hearts, and an experience that shatters her heart. Through the memories of her friend, the dreams of her future, and the promise of her heart being healed, Sarah, finds love, adventure, and finally a mended heart.
Tricia Goyer weaves through the lives of Sarah and her family and her friend Jathan and his family.

http://www.pinterest.com/triciagoyer/seven-brides-for-seven-bachelors-series/ Check out Tricia’s Pinterest Page here on the entire series

Loved this book by Goyer. Will be reading the entire Seven Brides Series)

I’m currently reading The Promise Box and cannot wait to review it!!

The Promise Box – Tricia Goyer

 

I have not been compensated for this review in any way!

Go check them out here!

 

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Grandparents Change

I have had the privilege of caring for 4 of my grandchildren this week since Thursday morning, and we have been in VBS this week so we have had a LOT of time together.  I asked for this pleasure, I begged for it, (because I had been sick) and my son was (rightly so) scared of leaving the kids with me, and me getting sicker..,.  I LOVE my children with all my heart.  They are the most amazing children in the world.  They have the most amazing children in the world.  My SWEET beautiful, talented, gifted, brilliant, smart, helpful, mischievous, (did I say amazing) grandchildren.

Knowing that I was 100% responsible for their well-being for this period of a time, and with their parents so far away, terrified me in a way, I was never terrified as a parent.  I was confident as a parent, I was strict, I was over strict (with one) and too lazy with the other, and just down right, flat-out wrong

I found myself, very “un”confident, very second guessing, very “guilty” about every word, every action, every reaction, and every choice that was made.  Was it right, was it wrong, did I screw them up forever, did I do something special that they would always remember, or could they just have fun…  (they didn’t 100% of the time) and ya know what… That was OKAY.

I don’t have to make everything perfect for my grandchildren all the time, I don’t have to be “on” 100% of the time, 100% of everything being, going, doing, planning, playing, talking and or that Disneyland grandparent (without the benefit of Disneyland)

i CAN BE OFF AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY.  I can apologize and let them realize that I am not perfect (trust me, they knew it anyway, but I was clueless) and that life sometimes with grandparents will be NOT fun and games, and NOT about doing something “fun” or “planned” or whatever…..

It will be rules, and it will be discipline and it could be hard… But it can still be fun…  and that’s okay….

I hurt each one of them’s feelings in some way this weekend, somehow.  I made them obey (oh my gosh) and they even had to help at home, and  shocker, I know, they even back talked (Brian and Amilia, please don’t freak out, because that’s NORMAL for children to do, and while it’s not necessarily the norm for parents) it’s okay as their grandparent to let it happen.  Because that’s how they stand up for themselves, become independent, have a voice…sometimes, it’s okay for them to be wrong, and it be okay… (with me) I need to remember that they aren’t little adults, they are KIDS, with KID feelings, KID emotions and KID hearts. (even the teenagers)   (Just please know these kids aren’t disobedient) they are KIDS!!!)  It may seem like they are being just unruly and whatever else, but please know that it is JUST the opposite!!

Those hearts, so big, so amazing, and they LOVE their grandparents (all of them, we discussed YOU ALL this weekend) and that all of their grandparents are super grandparents.

I get to be in their lives more than most and for us, it is a routine, Church, Library days, every week something fun (at least once) and they are part of a routine with me, and they are AMAZING!!!   They have learned to give my insulin shots (I can do it, they choose too) they help with my oxygen and my wheelchair and, oh my gosh, there is NOT enough words that I can say to say to them, thank you…. for being so amazing.

You 4 kids have helped me so much this weekend, not just “physically” but emotionally and spiritually and in ways, that you may never know.

I have realized, exactly HOW HARD it is for your parents and realize that they are incredible, awesome parents,  (even when I think they are too strict)  Because sometimes strict is what is necessary to teach.

I cannot express my love for these 4 kids (and the rest of them) in words.  There are no words.

But know, that you have taught Memaw so much in such a short little time, that I pray, and I am praying hard that each day with you from here on out will be incredibly different.  Not necessarily different in things we do, but different in expectations of your behaviors.

I expect you to back talk, I expect you to “have wiggles” and suck the water bottle in ’till it scrunches, and to fight with your brothers and sisters, and argue with me, because

that’s what kids do… 

doesn’t make it right, but it makes it okay…

and discipline (the right way) isn’t a bad thing, trusting you that your choices and your actions are okay…..  And knowing that because you have a life with God, you are going to still make bad choices, but that you already know when you have done something wrong.  You KNOW, because you have that conviction of God’s heart.

I have also learned that way too much, is WAY too much…. Down time, is a good thing… Just sitting around reading a book and not being “on” is okay… (well, I knew it was anyway) but the “entertainment factor” is changing.   I do NOT have to entertain you 100% of the time that I am with you…. YOU can entertain me, with your strength and your wisdom, and your choices (because you all make awesome choices most of the time) and your just being who you are.

Who you are, is, my SWEET beautiful, talented, gifted, brilliant, smart, helpful, mischievous, (did I say amazing) grandchildren, this also goes for the rest that weren’t with me this weekend.  I think you all are so awesome and all the above too…

Just know that there are gonna be some changes.   You may not like some of the changes coming up, but just know that the changes in me are gonna be there.  Because you all deserve the best.

 

2 Timothy 1:13-14  “What you heard from me, keep as the pattern of sound teaching, with faith and love in Christ Jesus.  Guard the good deposit that was entrusted to you—guard it with the help of the Holy Spirit who lives in us.”

 

God has blessed me with these amazing grandchildren, and I am so honored to be their grandparent…   I pray that he can give me the strength, and the wisdom to do what is right by these amazing children.  (a couple that aren’t children, but teenagers)  They DESERVE the most amazing life ever!!!!  Don’t even think that there will be more things  more things happening and more “going”  (it will probably be less) and that there will be more discipline, just different discipline.  No more of the thinking you have to be perfect all the time, but more of the knowing that you will be kids and going to be some things happen that well, you probably need to be disciplined for.  But know now that the discipline, probably will not like any discipline you have ever received before.  I’ve tried, but I know I am very inconsistent, and I will promise you that God will bless our relationship 100% more than he has already has and because of that, things will change…

Yes you must have manners, yes you have to not hit your brothers and sisters, and yes, you even have to clean up after yourself, that doesn’t change.

You do get to have fun, you do get to know that when you mess us, that it’s going to be okay.  You do need to know that no matter what you do, I am never going to stop loving you.

No matter what you say, I will NEVER stop loving you.

I didn’t think it was possible to love you any more than I already have, but I do.

Thank you for this wakeup call….

Memaw needed it.

Thank you again, Brian and Amilia for being the BEST parents for these children.  I am so proud that you are the parents of my grandchildren and honored that you trust me enough.  I pray that you will see the change also, NOT in the kids, because they are and have done exactly what they should have done, being kids and learning about life.

They are awesome, and you both have done an incredible job raising them.

Isaiah 46:4  “Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you.  I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”

What a promise.  HE will rescue me.  I am so ready to be rescued!  Oh yes, God, please rescue me, please take me to a place that only you can.  I NEED to be rescued from myself.  From that grandparent that sees everything as “if you show them fun, they will love you” to the grandparent that if you show them love, they already love you… I don’t have to show them fun, I have to show them respect.  and love.  That’s IT, with those two things, then the rest will come.

God please give me the love, the understanding and thank you for the blessing to be the best grandparent I can for these children, because they deserve the very best.  I thank you every day for them and for the gift of their beautiful lives!  Thank you so much for gifting me with their parents also.

Here are some pictures from our week.  I didn’t get many, but here’s couple!

Five Minute Friday – Bloom

Bloom

1. the flower of a plant.
2 flowers collectively: the bloom of the cherry tree.
3. state of having the buds opened: The gardens are all in bloom.
4. a flourishing, healthy condition; the time or period of greatest beauty, artistry, etc.: the bloom of youth; the bloom of Romanticism.
5. a glow or flush on the cheek indicative of youth and health: a serious illness that destroyed her bloom.

Bloom

 

I have always heard, “Bloom where you’re planted” or something like that.  In other words, do what you need to do, right where you are, with what you have, and let God take control.

For me, that is very hard.  I am a control freak.  I want to be in control of every single aspect of my life, my homes life and what is happening around me

Imagine my surprise when God gifted me with a, a couple of broken legs when I was two and several surgeries after that till I was an adult, a husband with leukemia, a son with asthma, couple of serious illnesses, a very ADHD child and a sister that completed a suicide.

Just a few life interruptions that have been blessings in the long run, if I stop and look at them long enough (*except my sister’s suicide)

It’s all been in how I looked at them, and if I let God “Bloom me where I was planted.

I have had to change MY ways of thinking and realize that no matter what, God is in control, of every single, minute detail.  Not the ones I want to give him, but EVERY single detail.

Bloom where you’re planted, in spite of broken legs, and hurt joints and many surgeries, keep going, keep playing basketball, keep playing tennis, and keep on running… Bloom

Bloom where you’re planted in spite of a husband that had leukemia.  Greet each day as a new day, and make friends with the families on the floor, ask how they are doing, what do they need, what can I do, do you need to talk.   Bloom

Bloom where you son is in the hospital with asthma/pneumonia at such a young age, treat the nurses to pizza at night, ask them about their life, ask caregivers about their lives, do they need anything, can I help take some of the load off of you because I am here and won’t be leaving….Bloom

Bloom in a school where my son was having a very huge difficult time. He spends more time in the principal’s office than he does in class…. Bloom…. Bloom because you KNOW he is a good young man and he has been labeled bad, and if someone would just take the chance to know him, love him, challenge him, and get to the real young man that he was,

Bloom when your sister is so mentally challenged that she wants to kill people, that she sees demons, that she finally is so unsatisfied with her life, and thinks there is absolutely no going back, she takes her life.  In doing so, you know she is at peace for the first time in many years, however, you also know that your parents have lost two children early and for them, it is the worst day of their life, and for you, still you know she is at peace, but the pain hurts.  Physically she is gone.  Emotionally she is healed.,

 Bloom :), blessings…. Bloom where you are planted, right where you are, with what you have.

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Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday


this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)
So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.
We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).
No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.
Unscripted. Unedited. Real.
It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.
So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.
Your words. This shared feast. It’s easy to join in, just:
Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
{And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post} Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url
http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ } Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!
Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it
Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

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Five Minute Friday – Exhale

Exhale

1.to emit breath or vapor; breathe out.
2. to pass off as vapor; pass off as an effluence. verb (used with object), ex·haled, ex·hal·ing.
3.  to breathe out; emit (air, vapor, soundetc.): to exhale a sigh.
4.  to give off as vapor: The engine exhaled steam.
5.  to draw out as a vapor or effluence; evaporate

Exhale

Whew….hmmm…..ahhhh… no matter how you do it, exhale relieves the carbon dioxide from your body.  In other words, poisons.

and equating that with exhaling, when you breathe, good goes in, bad goes out, so relieving yourself of all the toxins, is a great thing.  Required to live and required to get through a day.

So expunging poison from your body, like sin, is a way to cleanse your soul.  When you ask God in your heart,, he expunged satan from your heart.  Your want to only take in good things should prevalent in your soul, good friends, good reading, good TV, good websites, great music

Those things don’t come naturally though.  Because of Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden, we are born sinful.  Every Day, the first breath you take each morning, you sin….

Isn’t it incredible that we have a Lord and Savior that can take away that sin.  He collects our tears, he washes us clean,..  By reading His word, we have a guide to be able to live a life that has the ending of the lifetime.

have you read Revelations?  Have you read the Bible?

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I am going through the Bible this year and have been so blessed to reread things and really understand what He is talking about, because my faith is stronger, I understand.  To me, that gives me so much joy that I actually “know” what it’s saying

He tells us not to worry, not to fret, not to be prideful and to let Him guide your life.  In doing so, you can EXHALE and rejoice in the truth, that God sits in Heaven and will be coming back for us one day!!!

 

 

 

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

 

this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)
So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.
We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).
No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.
Unscripted. Unedited. Real.
It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.
So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.
Your words. This shared feast. It’s easy to join in, just:
Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
{And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post} Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url
http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ } Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!
Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it
Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

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The Day of Tears

Ever have one of those days, where everything that possibly could go wrong did.  Do NOT lie to me and tell me you haven’t, because there is just no way, every day you have is perfect.  It just doesn’t happen

However, it all depends on how you look at it.

I’m blessed, I KNOW I’m blessed.

Again, I am so blessed beyond measure and I KNOW, I am blessed.

One more time, I am so very blessed, and I know that I have a God who reigns on High and will give me the tools to do everything that ever changes my way of thinking!!!

See it’s all in how you look at it.

Let me roll back about a week and a half.

I found another diabetic ulcer on my foot.  Not the one that usually gets them, but the other one, so that was strange in and of itself.  I went to church last Sunday night though and I could NOT get it to quit bleeding out.  It ruined a perfectly good pair of shoes, and let me just say, I’m glad our carpet at church us red. (seriously)

That’s how much it was bleeding.  So I try to get in to see the dr and I get told that it will be two weeks, and well I was so frustrated because this particular person on the other end of the phone didn’t listen to me at all, that I just hung up and decided to call back for the nurse.  I finally get her on the phone and she says, well it’s going to be two weeks.  I say one more time, You DID hear me say I have a diabetic wound?  I don’t know what was going on in their office, but it must have been something very serious, but she just abruptly said, I’ve got to go, and will call you back soon. <~~~ First lesson to myself, that I know I am blessed.  i was saying prayers for whatever/whoever was happening in the clinic and that everything was okay.

She did, we worked it out and he would see me on Thurs because I had an appointment with my PCP on Wed and at least it would already be started being treated.

My granddaughter ends up sick and I give her my appointment <~~~~ there is another reason that I know I am blessed.  My sweet baby had a double ear infection and was in a good bit of pain.  So glad she was able to get in to see the dr quickly and hat she got some meds and was on her way to healing.

I get to the wound care clinic and they do my A1C and when the dr comes in, he is furious with me.  First, apparently I missed an appointment, my A1C had jumped about 3 points, and several other things.  But I know I’m blessed.  Really!  I do KNOW it

So go ahead to today, after a grand holiday with my family and friends and great fireworks and the most incredible fried fish I have ever had (thank you Brian and Hale) and just a great evening of being with grandkids,kids, sister, etc.

Life is so good.  We went to church, cleaned a lot over the weekend, and just had a fantastic time.  Paul had a 4 day weekend for the FIRST time in we can’t remember (we really seriously tried to figure it out, and we are figuring, July 4th of last year when we went on a short vacation)

anyway, fast forward to Monday morning.  I have a nurse visit and a million phone calls to make.  So I start on the phone calls, etc and the nurse gets here and re dresses my foot, but I had already started feeling down and having myself a good old-fashioned pity party.

I finished up the day, with chores etc, from my bed with the dog and by the end of the day, I am in serious tears.

I mean serious tears.  Sobbing crying, <~~~~  I don’t know why, other than I was feeling sorry for myself.

Then I got word of a good friend who fell and broke his ankle in two places.  A man who does so much for the community in so many different ways, and I thought you dingaling, think about, you still have so much use of your foot, why are you crying, you have a beautiful family to dote on, why are you crying?  Your life is pretty dadgum good!!! WHY are you crying?

I honestly can’t tell you why I was crying.  I don’t know.  I do know that after more than a few minutes and along talk with God, I was thinking to myself, how trivial.  How much have I neglected to see in my pity party.  The sunshine, the sunrise, the sunset, my flowers growing, going outside to watch the dog play, being “in” the world, and not just cooped up in my bed feeling sorry for myself.

God tells us, do everything with a cheerful heart.  I know he doesn’t mean, plaster a fake smile on your face and go through the motions, He means, have love in your heart, a smile on your face, and let Him rule your thoughts to get you through the hard times.

I’ve heard so much bad news today, a HS friend’s cancer has spread, a baby died because her parents left her in the car in the heat, a man was bitten by a shark, the uprising in all the foreign countries, our border collapse and the problems that are facing the border agents and just on and on and on.  And here I am crying for who knows why?

When you are so down that you lose control of yourself and the only recourse is that pity party.  Have it.  A good cry is worth so much.  Just remember though, that in that pity party, you MUST realize that you have a Lord and Savior that rules over your and that you are the child of the ONE TRUE KING!!!

How on earth can that NOT put a smile on your face?

I know I will have more bad days.  Those bad days may come sooner than later.  <~~~~~But I have so MUCH to be thankful for and I am so incredibly blessed, because I know that I have a God that loves me, He lives in my heart and He will heal my wounded heart, my wounded spirit and my physical wounds

This song, came to my heart today, and I love the words,

Jesus, He meets you where you are, He heals your secret scars

Can you imagine the  day of tears that Mary felt, or the disciples.  The sadness, the weariness, that feeling of dread.  KNOWING that Jesus was going to be crucified on the cross.  That sadness, but oh what sheer joy we find in that empty tomb.  The empty tomb!!  Oh what a blessing it is, to know that MY SAVIOR lives, and that He loves… He loves so much, that He collects my tears. He gathers them up, he keeps them for me, and I know HE heals my wounded heart…

.I am so incredibly blessed that I never have to fret, and in fact He tells me to let Him do that!  Let Him take my worries, my sadness, my tears…The tears I can throw away and praise HIM <~~~~because I am blessed..


Friend of a Wounded Heart - By Wayne Watson
Smile, make 'em think you're happy
 Lie and say that things are fine
 And hide that empty longing that you feel
 Don't ever show it, just keep your heart concealed
Why are the days so lonely?
 I wonder where, where can a heart go free
 And who will dry the tears that no one's seen?
 There must be someone to share your silent dreams
Caught like a leaf in the wind
 Lookin' for a friend, where can you turn?
 Whisper the words of a prayer and you'll find Him there
 Arms open wide, love in His eyes
Jesus, He meets you where you are
 Jesus, He heals your secret scars
 All the love you're longing for
 Is Jesus, the friend of a wounded heart
Joy comes like the the morning
 And hope deepens as you grow
 And peace, beyond the reaches of your soul
 Comes blowing through you, for love has made you whole
Once like a leaf in the wind
 Looking for a friend, where could you turn?
 You spoke the words of a prayer and you found Him there
 Arms open wide, love in His eyes
Jesus, He meets you where you are
 Jesus, He heals your secret scars
 All the love you're longing for
 Is Jesus, the friend of a wounded heart
He meets you where you are
 Jesus, He heals your secret scars
 All the love you're longing for, all the love that you need
 Is Jesus, the friend of a wounded heart
The friend of a wounded heart


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Five Minute Friday Lost

Lost

 
  1. no longer possessed or retained: lost friends.
  2. no longer to be found: lost articles.
  3. having gone astray or missed the way;  bewildered as to place,direction, etc.: lost children.
  4. not used to good purpose, as opportunities, time, or labor;wasted: a lost advantage.
  5. 5. being something that someone has failed to win: a lost prize.
 

Lost

 

I never really sat down and thought about what this word really means until tonight.  “Lost”  I’ve lost my keys, lost my glasses, lost love, lost a family member, I’ve lost a game.  But what have I really lost?  Most of these things are tangible items.  Items that can be replaced.  Except for a family member, I think these things can be replaced and or made better…

Losing a loved one, is well, irreplaceable,

I have never been so lost as knowing that my parents are both gone.  I remember a few weeks after my mother died, I was in the grocery store and needed a recipe, I went to the phone (this was before cellphones) and picked up the phone, dialed the number to my home that I great up in, where she always answered the phone, and there was no answer.   I just slumped down right in the grocery store and that’s when I lost it.  Not at the funeral, not the day she died, but there in that grocery store, sitting on the floor, holding the phone, bawling my eyes out.  I LOST my mom and I needed her.  I needed her a lot.  She was always my rock, always my go to person.  Her and I may have fought like cats and dogs, and not gotten along well, but she was always there no matter what.

That was a constant that I could always remember.

Mom was, well mom.  Strong, (when you lose two children before you, that makes you strong) she loved our God, (her faith never faltered) she was “Mom”

I know that for me, I want to immolate my mother’s personality, her love for giving to others, and her strength.  I pray that the love I lost and the person I lost, will live on in me.  It’s not that I would ever compare myself to her, because there is no comparison.  She was/is my rock,  I thank God every single day for the gift He gave me, when I was born to her.

Having a strong mom, with a strong-willed child, isn’t it amazing how he knows… He knows that the mother I needed wouldn’t back down, would be the person that I needed to stand strong and be able to stand up to my wilfulness… I thank God every day that He gave me her,

After life circumstances, I know that having a mom like I did isn’t a rare thing…

Thank you Lord for this gift, thank you for helping me understand that I didn’t lose a mom, I gained a legacy.

I love you mom

My Beautiful Mom

 

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Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

 

 

 

 

 

this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)
So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.
We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).
No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.
Unscripted. Unedited. Real.
It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.
So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.
Your words. This shared feast. It’s easy to join in, just:
Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
{And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post} Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url
http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ } Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!
Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it
Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

 

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Identical The Movie

I am invited to a screening of this movie The Identical

I am so excited!  First because it’s the first time I have ever been invited to a special screening premier

But 2) because the movie looks to be phenomenal

I seriously can not wait to get started in this movie!  The review on PluggedIn is not up yet, however here is the

synopsis from the movie webpage The Identical

THE IDENTICAL

Identical twin brothers (both played by Blake Rayne) are separated at birth during the Great Depression. Their parents (Brian Geraghty, Amanda Crew) just cannot afford to give them both a life beyond poverty, so one is adopted by loving family. Despite their very different upbringings, the boys’ shared passion for music causes their lives to unknowingly intersect as they experience a powerful and mysterious connection often felt by twins.

One of the boys becomes the most famous rock ‘n’ roll legend in the world, Drexel Hemsley, while Ryan Wade struggles to find balance between his love for music and trying to please his evangelist father (Ray Liotta) and his devoted mother (Ashley Judd) who have very different plans for his life in the ministry.

Ryan is encouraged by his wife Jenny (Erin Cottrell) and lifelong friends Dino and Avi (Seth Green, Joe Pantoliano) to follow his musical dreams. And oh, can he sing, just like his world famous brother!

A timeless tale of love, hope, and redemption. A captivating journey about the restoration and the reconciliation of a family broken apart by culture, creed and tradition.

STARRING: Erin CottrellAmanda CrewBrian GeraghtySeth GreenAshley JuddJoe PantolianoBlake Rayne, and Ray Liotta

DIRECTED BY: Dustin Marcellino

PRODUCED BY: Mark G. MathisYochanan MarcellinoMatthew Dean Russell

DRAMA, 107 Min, 2014

Featuring over 20 original songs by Jerry Marcellino and Yochanan Marcellino including: “Your Love’s Keepin’ Me Tonight,” “City Lights,” “Angel of Mine,” “Everybody Knows It” and “Nashville Tonight”

The Official Trailer

Confessions of A Prodigal Son

The movie –  Confessions of a Prodigal Son was just a dream when I first heard about it about 2 or 3 years ago

Nathan Clarkson shared at a Mom Heart Conference in Dallas, TX with the people in attendance about his goal of getting this movie, from idea to theater, that tells the modern story of the Prodigal Son.

Nathan wrote this movie, and worked with this movie from the beginning and is asking for help to get 250,000 people to be interested in this movie, just like they did with Soul Surfer and God’s Not Dead that Kevin Sorbo, was in.  Kevin Sorbo, from God is not Dead–is the father of the prodigal son 

Well, here is the FIRST OFFICIAL trailer for the movie!  

 

It just came out today and has been so successful in getting people interested in it, YouTube couldn’t handle all the traffic!!!  That has since been fixed and the trailer is showing and you need to go check it out!

We MUST keep movies like Confessions of a Prodigal Son, God’s Not Dead and Soul Surfer in theaters, however, we have to let Hollywood know that you want these movies.  Go check out the trailer here

 

 

Then please go like the Facebook page of Confessions of a Prodigal Son and share it where ever you can, whether it be in a Blog, FB, Twitter, Instagram, Path, LinkedIn, Google +; whatever floats your boat!  Just SHARE!!!!

 

 

More Links

http://www.confessionsofaprodigalson.com/

http://www.itakejoy.com/#sthash.rzkVcd3Q.dpuf

http://nathanjclarkson.wordpress.com/

http://nathanjclarkson.com

http://nathanjohnclarkson.com

https://www.facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAProdigalSon

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Nathan-Clarkson/234656049945107

The enemy Will NOT win

Today has been one of those days where it seems like the enemy is doing everything he can to keep from

sharing/showing God Not going into detail bit let’s just say

DEVIL YOU STINK!!!

You are NOT mightier than my God

You are NOT mightier than my faith and

You are NOT mightier than my marriage

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Thank you so much God for helping me stand firm and sid in your preaence. Help me continue on a path

of being a passionate follower of you

A true follower of you

I know I am redeemed and I just cry out to you for you to fill me up with your spirit

Satan’s lies are powerful, but God’s truth is even stronger.

My prayer is this: on the days when you feel unlovable and ugly and you doubt why anyone would want you… those days when you feel like a failure as a mom or a wife… the days when you can’t get your finances in order and your checkbook just won’t balance… the days when your past slinks up beside you and reminds you of people who have hated you or laughed at you… the days when your friends have stopped calling or are too busy to notice you… the days when someone does something horrible to you and takes advantage of you… or the nights when you can’t sleep because you don’t know what tomorrow brings and you’re afraid of really screwing up…

On those days? Come back to these truths. Read them out loud if you have to, no matter how silly you feel doing so. Remind yourself that your worth does NOT lie in your friends or your finances or your marriage or your past. You are worthy of being loved just because of His love for you. Above all else, you are His. Never forget.

the above is from http://sixgoldencoins.blogspot.com/2012/01/who-god-says-i-am.html

she says exactly what I want to say and how I want to say it!!  Elizabeth is a great writer and probably has no clue who I am, but I love to read her blog!!!

 

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Five Minute Friday – Hands

Wow, what an extraordinary prompt, now, for me.  There are some things going on in our family that just bring you back to who you know is in control.  No questions asked.   That is God.  I KNOW without a doubt, my life is under His control and I know that HE controls my family.

It has taken so much to be 100% faith filled, without a doubt, no questions asked.

I pray to Him daily, for so many reasons, but these are just a few..

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Just so many reasons, our hands are the way to express our feelings and emotions and love for someone

God has blessed us with hands, to say I love you, express joy by clapping, anger with a clenched fist, but what more can there be, but holding hands to express love for each other… Just like Jesus gave us so much love not by holding our hands, but by so much more sacrifice to have nails hammered into his hands for us.  For our loves, so that we would never have to undergo that same kind of torture.

Isn’t that the best, final expression of love?  

From the top picture to the very last picture, each one expresses so much love in and of itself….

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what mercy that He gives us every day by giving us the freedom to love, to hold, to nurture, just like He did that day on the cross!

Thank you for your sacrifice

 

 

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

 

 

this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)
So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.
We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).
No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.
Unscripted. Unedited. Real.
It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.
So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.
Your words. This shared feast. It’s easy to join in, just:
Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
{And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post} Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url
http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ } Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!
Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it
Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community
 
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Five Minute Friday – Nothing

Nothing

None, Nada, NIl, Zich, Nine,

Nothing

There’s nothing else to be said about nothing… It is nothing.  It isn’t anything, it is Nothing….

God has blessed me with a huge family, lots of friends and lots of acquaintances.  I am so

incredibly blessed.  

So why is there this feeling of nothing roaming around in my head.  

Because I let the enemy control my thoughts.  When he controls my thoughts, instead of God,

I feel worthless,

disgusting, useless, nothing..,,

But I have this amazing friend, this amazing friend, that took everything, so I have to do

nothing… except love

Him, Worship Him…spread HIS news, tell others about HIM.. that’s it….  that’s all He asks of us.,

Follow the Ten Commandments

Follow Him

This gives me so much courage to know that I am NOT nothing!!

I am everything with Him

He gives me everything because I love Him and trust Him and because I respond… to His

commands, His wants….,

Sometimes God says wait, and I must be patient, sometimes, He says move, and I move,

sometimes He carries

me and I am blessed, but most of all, He loves me…. 

I Corinthians 15:10 says “But whatever I am now, it is all because God poured out his special favor on me—and not without results. For I have worked harder than any of the other apostles; yet it was not I but God who was working through me by his grace”

 

Isn’t that such an amazing thing, “For whatever I am now, it is all because God poured out his

special favor on me”    Beautiful, amazing words, that tells me that to God, I am loved and that I am everything

to Him

 

 

 

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

 

 

(this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)
So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.
We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).
No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.
Unscripted. Unedited. Real.
It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.
So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.
Your words. This shared feast. It’s easy to join in, just:
Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
{And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post} Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url
http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ } Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!
Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it
Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community
 
 
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Best EVER Caramels

These Caramels… L Frances out of Appleton,  Wisconsin are the most

amazing caramels I have ever tasted

caramels (1)L. Frances Caramels

These caramels, are soft, chewy, they don’t ever have that hard side

to them, and kind of just melt in your mouth.

I have only found them at CVS on their counter by checkout…

However, I will be ordering some.

Calories in L Frances Caramel thank you to MyFitnessPal  If you are on

a diet, check out their website.  It is AWESOME!

 
Nutrition Facts
L Frances – Caramel
 
  1. Servings: (copied from Myfitnesspal.com)

Calories

60

Sodium

0 mg

Total Fat

2 g

Potassium

0 mg

Saturated

0 g

Total Carbs

10 g

Polyunsaturated

0 g

Dietary Fiber

0 g

Monounsaturated

0 g

Sugars

0 g

Trans

0 g

Protein

0 g

Cholesterol

0 mg

   

Vitamin A

0%

Calcium

0%

Vitamin C

0%

Iron

0%

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
*Percent Daily Values are based on a 2000 calorie diet. Your daily values maybe higher or lower depending on your calorie needs.

as long as you don’t go nuts and eat like 100, you will get a tasty, sweet, wonderful treat.

here is their contact information

and I promise, I will be ordering some!!

Contact Us
To Contact us by Phone, Fax, or Mail:
Customer Service Hours are:
Monday through Friday
8:00 am to 5:00 pm CST
Closed on Saturday and Sunday
Phone: 920-955-2000
Fax: 920-955-2002

Mail:
L. Frances Caramel Company
2500 North Lynndale Drive
Appleton, WI 54914
Email Us

I received nothing for this review, but wishing for a bucket of caramels <3

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FIve Minute Friday Close

Close

close
 [v. klohz; adj., adv. 
verb (used with object), closed, clos·ing.
1.to put (something) in a position to obstruct an entrance, opening, etc.; shut.
2.to stop or obstruct (a gap, entrance, apertureetc.): to close a hole in a wall with plaster.
3.to block or hinder passage across or access to: to close a border to tourists; to close the woods topicnickers.
4.to stop or obstruct the entrances, apertures, or gaps in: He closed the crate and tied it up.
5.(of the mind) to make imperceptive or inaccessible: to close one’s mind to the opposite opinion.
6.to bring together the parts of; join; unite (often followed by up  ): Close up those ranks! The surgeonclosed the incision.
7.Electricity to complete (an electrical circuit) by joining the circuit elements: The circuit was closed sothe current could be measured.
8.to bring to an end: to close a debate.
9.to arrange the final details of; to conclude negotiations about: to close a deal to everyone’s satisfaction.
10.to complete or settle (a contract or transaction); consummate: We close the sale of the house nextweek.
11.to stop rendering the customary services of: to close a store for the night.
12.to terminate or suspend the operation of; to halt the activities of: The epidemic forced authorities toclose the schools. The police closed the bar for selling liquor to minors.
13.Nautical to come close to: We closed the cruiser to put our injured captain on board.
14.Metalworking. to reduce the internal diameter of (a tube or the like).
15.Archaic. to shut in or surround on all sides; enclose; cover in: to close a bird in a cage.

Close

so many meanings… Close to you, Close to God, Close the door, they closed the circut, etc, etc.

God being close to me is my redeeming quality.  I am so blessed and so thankful that I have a close relationship with

God.  Don’t get me wrong, it’s not near as close as I want it to be.  However, He loves me, He protects me, and HE is my

saving grace.  Without His grace and mercy I would be nothing, absolutely nothing.  I thank HIM everyday that He is

never changing because I know I am, I know I am unworthy and such a worm.

He brings me up, He makes me His, because I give my heart to Him alone.

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God’s Love Is Closeness

God’s love is drawn to us that want Him.  He will never move, never leave.  You just desire.  Tell Him.  He knows, but

you tell

James 4:8 says, Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.

 

I found so many other verses about this very thing.  If you want to read them click   here

God desires us to ask him.  His need to be wanted is so passionate and He is a jealous God.

The devil will do whatever he can in any role he can to make you think that you don’t need God or have a close

relationship with God.

But you do.  It’s his WILL, His DESIRE, He loves us so much, He wants us for eternity.  Are you close, do you desire to be

closer still?  Read your Bible, Pray, find a Home Church, Talk to Him, just like a friend.  Have a

conversation.  Outloud!!!

I try to live this every day. Be closer to God

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

 

(this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)
So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.
We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).
No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.
Unscripted. Unedited. Real.
It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.
So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.
Your words. This shared feast. It’s easy to join in, just:
Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
{And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post} Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url
http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ } Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!
Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it
Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community
 
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Guest Post – Lisa Jo Baker – & Giveaway

Updated on Monday, May 13, 2014

Winners of the giveaway

Lindsey B

and

Randy F (2)

Congratulations to both of you for winning and participating!  

I appreciate your willingness to share your story and my blog!!!

Have a very blessed day!!

I have the honor of introducing my very first real guest post today from my new friend Lisa-Jo Baker… When I started this journey of promoting her book launch for Surprised By Motherhood,  I never dreamed, I would blog, tweet, post or pin as much as I have about one thing.  That one thing is Surprised By Motherhood … This amazing book by Lisa!   She thought my thoughts, felt my feelings, and said what I’ve wanted to say about motherhood but my story is a little different and you can read that here

In honor of Mother’s Day, I got to choose one of the blogs I liked the best that Lisa had written and add it as a guest post here.  So here is the post of Lisa’s that was near to my heart….Also I get the opportunity to give you the chance to win one of these amazing book-plate, signed to anyone you want (just the book-plate)

(Giveaway is at the end of the blog)

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How do you measure meaning in the life of a mom?

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Is it in diapers changed?

Loads of laundry folded?

Dishes washed and stacked and put away?

Is it in temper tantrums soothed, fevers treated, number of steps walked to rock babies back to sleep?

What about all those dentist appointments and chocolate chip cookies baked? Is it in cups of tea poured and

teddy bear tea parties attended? In baby dolls lost and found and lost again?

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Do we measure a year in developmental milestones or growth charts or good behavior sticker sheets? Do we

count all the time outs and spills and failures and starting overs and regrets and missed opportunities and

nightmares and wanting to run home to our mothers?

Or maybe it’s in how we’re learning to tell the truth about motherhood? Or get over our mom guilt?

Do we count it in new grey hairs and wrinkles and pounds? Do we judge it on the clothes we couldn’t wear

this year because despite our best efforts they still don’t fit us?

Do we judge ourselves on whether our kids finally, finally potty trained or if they can spell their names?

Is it in secrets whispered between bunk beds and hearts tenderly opened and offered – all six years worth of

learning how to be human. Is it in hearing your daughter lisp, “I wuv you, mama” or your son try to monkey

hug you four times in a row?

Is it in early morning commutes to daycare drop offs or vacation days spent in the pediatrician’s office? Is it

in mascara-streaked cheeks and moments spent quietly crying in the ladies’ room at work when we missed

their field trip?

Is this year still penalizing us with working mother’s guilt or do we measure the grace we’re learning to give

ourselves?

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Maybe it’s all of this and all of this adds up to a handful of loaves and fish that we didn’t think would be

enough.

Not enough of us to go around.

Not enough of us to handle the growth spurts and teenage years and best friend break ups.

Not enough of us to manage to single parent for the months he was deployed or on the road for work or

simply walked out.

Not enough at midnight and not enough at 4pm when no one wants to do their homework and there’s still

no plan for dinner.

Not enough when he’s screaming how much he wishes he had a different mother and she’s trying to sneak

into that skirt you’ve told her is too short when you’re short on patience and grace and no parenting book

could have ever prepared you for this.

Not enough meal planning and not enough gas for all those car pool runs and not enough hair to pull out

on the all out, full on crazy days.

Not enough patience in the galaxy for the mornings all 14 pairs of socks he tries on he throws over his

shoulder and declares too uncomfortable.

Not enough time to juggle the OT appointments and the taekwon do lessons and the scrubbing off the

bathroom stains.

Not enough romance or good days or courage.

But here’s the thing – you’re not the first “not enough” and you won’t be the last.

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And what you thought you couldn’t give, Jesus gives thanks for and breaks and multiplies and there is just

enough for today.

And tomorrow.

And at 2am.

There He is again, singing over you as you sing over sick babies and breaking your heart into bits and pieces

of holy, sacred sacrifice.

More than you could have known.

Measuring your year in all the broken, ordinary glory. Heaped high.

A sacrifice of praise.

Your making and unmaking and remaking.

Immeasurably more than we could ever ask or imagine. He measures out to us.

And He is always enough.

 

{To see the video reminder of why mothers are braver than they know, click here}.

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This guest post comes with love from Lisa-Jo Baker to our community in celebration of Mother’s Day. If you

haven’t already – treat yourself, your mom, your sister, your BFF or your grandma to a copy of her new

book, Surprised by Motherhood: Everything I Never Expected About Being a Mom. No matter what stage

you’re in when it comes to motherhood, we promise it will encourage. And remind you that you are braver

than you think.

The Giveaway

*In honor of Mother’s Day, Lisa-Jo is giving away a signed book-plate to three of my fabulous blog readers

(she will personalize them with a name of your choice). To enter, leave a comment telling me your best

memory of your mother and we will announce the

winners this Sunday, Mother’s Day.

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 My favorite memory about my mom, is that in spite of being crippled for life in 1964 and losing two children, she always had a kind word to say to everyone, always gave everything she had, to anyone that needed it and always, I mean always was willing to share God with anyone who would listen

My Beautiful Mom

 

 

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Five Minute Friday – Friend – April 25, 2014

Friend

friend
noun
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends of the Boston Symphony.
3. a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?

Friend

 

I don’t have many friends, as in super close, tell all, bust a gut friends.  I have 3 exactly, My sister, Amber and Celeste.

The rest of my friends are great and I love them, however, they are more acquaintances.  I am sheltered, in my views on friendship, because I’ve been hurt so very much.  I won’t/don’t open up to anyone.   Deep.  I may tell the surface.

I however, will listen to anyone.  I feel honored when someone trusts me enough to open up with me.

Thank you God for those that trust me.

I pray that I will learn to trust more.

 

Wow, never realized how much this subject hurt so much until I talk about it. When you have been hurt by two very close friends, in the  same way, you tend to shut down.  You keep it all to yourself, you never know who you can trust, so you trust no one.

I pray again, that God will teach me to trust and to learn to be a better friend.

 

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

 

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here starting at 10pm EST on Thursday night and all through Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the hashtag #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast.

It’s easy to join in, just:

  1. Check what the prompt is on my blog.
  2. Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
  3. {And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post}
  4. Link over here and invite friends to join in.
  5. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ }
  6. Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of my Five Minute Friday post enter your link.
  7. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky.
  8. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky.
  9. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!

Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community.

- See more at: http://lisajobaker.com/five-minute-friday/#sthash.WaDv6ivl.dpuf

 

 

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Five Minute Friday – Writer – April 4, 2014

Writer

a person engaged in writing books, articles, stories, etc., especially as 
an occupation or profession; 
an author or journalist.a clerk, scribe, or the like.`
a person who commits his or her thoughts, ideas, etc., to writing:
 an expert letter writer. (in a piece of writing) 
the author 
(used as a circumlocution for “I,” “me,”“my,” etc.):
The writer wishes to state….
a person who writes or is able to writea writer in script.

Writer

I am not a writer.  Never profess to be.  However, I love to write.  Hmmm… What does that make me?  A wannabe author, a wannabe journalist, a wannabe writer…..  I thoroughly enjoyed working on the Tomahawk when I was in high school.  I also wrote for our annual “The Chief”  .  God blessed me with the ability to talk… a LOT, so now I am trying to do less talking and more writing and get my thoughts down on paper. I journal.  I write everything .   This comes from years of having a doodling habit.  I was/am always writing something.  Whether it be drawing a page of squares, or doodling the names of my family.  Or whatever else, I dream up in my head.I have a love for writing,  I only wish I could write so much better.  Another passion I have, is for journals and pens.  Getting new journals to me is like getting the best present ever!!! I love to go through and choose new journals so that I can write more.  These are two of my latest that I am absolutely in love with.  They go everywhere with me photo (3)

 I also love pens, markers, gels, highlighters , crayons, art pencils, etc.   These are just a few of what I have and carry with me all the time!
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 Being able to share this love of writing and drawing and doodling with my grandchildren, makes me incredibly happy.  We spend hours on end, drawing and coloring and writing.  They have to learn a new verse for our Children’s Program at Church called Kingdom Kids  One of the ways we learn, is to write and rewrite the verse  That makes learning and teaching so easy. God has given me a gift.  Not the gift of writing but the gift of love of writing.
I know I don’t write grammatically correct.  I kind of write like I talk.  East Texan!! I couldn’t draw a picture of anything if I traced it on the paper for me. But oh how I love to write, journal, journals, pens, drawing, tracing, Spirograph, tracing.  It doesn’t matter, as long as there is a pen, a pencil and a piece of paper, I will write.
I dream of a day that I should have collected every story my son David  wrote…   Now he was a writer.  A good one at that.    He wrote stories and tales, and sports articles, etc  He wouldn’t let me save them.  When he was in Boot Camp, they took his journal from him.  I pray he never looses his desire to write. How I long to be like him and be able to create from a simple word, write from an idea and then simply, get published, BECAUSE you are good enough!Fotor040492452
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Five Minute Friday

(this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)

So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast. It’s easy to join in, just:

Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.

Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.

{And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post} Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url

http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ } Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!

Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it

Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

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Surprised By Motherhood Review

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My #SurprisedbyMotherhood journey is anything but pretty.  Don’t get me wrong, I ADORE my children. They are the love of my life!

I am so honored to be their mother.

However, getting here, has been a journey of pain, agony, illnesses, hate, bitterness and then seeping out to being a helicopter mom, over-protectiveness and then just pure respect and love.  Loving being their friend as adults

The back story.

I was born to two parent that absolutely adored me!  However, they lost two children, one at the age of 8 in a car accident and the 2nd at the age of 28 to a completed suicide.  My parents loved the two of us remaining, however, they also were very depressed (mom) but oh how she loved God.  She put her faith in Him and she lived, knowing that it was #GodsPlans

My dad however, while a great dad, great provider, was hard to love.  He didn’t show love, he didn’t show affection.

Mom and Dad both ended up crippled for life from the car accident, but they both worked their tails off to give for us and give my remaining sister and me everything we wanted and needed and then our kids also.

So while I had role models, their model was not a true identity of who they were.  It was tainted. By life, by circumstances, by death, mostly..

Okay fast forward to me being 21.  I married the first person that asked me.  I thought I was in love with him.  We fought constantly, we fought hard.  He was a great provider, and when we did get along, we were fantastic.  However, we ended up pregnant and then it was only downhill from there.

We split up with my oldest son was 3 months old I went home for several years. “Let” my mother raise my son, except when convenient me to be a parent.   His Granny was the person he loved, he went to, and he looked up to as a parent.  Not me.  I was a passerby, they while I was there almost every day.  I didn’t take an active role in raising him.

That soon changed.  My mom was older and tired.  So she said no more, to me.  This was the best thing that ever happened to me.  When Brian was 3-year-old and being abandoned by his father and had been by his mother except hen convenient for them, we realized, hmm how many emotional issues does he have.  Hyperactivity (yes at 3) and as he grew, we also knew he was obsessive compulsive and oppositional (gee wonder why mom) and then dyslexic.

During this time from 3-5 for him, I also married again, got pregnant again (I will talk about that soon) and Brian was ecstatic, He had a parent that gave him the time of day.  I moved out from my parent’s home and soon had to parent.

I learned hard and fast, just how hard it was.

Okay back to the pregnancy.  When I found out I was pregnant again.  I cried, literally sat down and cried, because I did NOT want a 2nd child.  I couldn’t put enough time into the first one, much less a 2nd one.

Also during that time, I ended up divorced again.  *after only 6 months

David was sick from the get go.  Born a month premature, also with lung disease.  Born with sores all over his body from my water having broken early and not knowing it.

On the day of his birth Dec 21, I was alone.  I had gone to a routine apt and they said we are taking him now, Scared, terrified actually (way before cell phones) I tried to reach my parents, my mom was gone to the zoo with all of her grandkids, and my dad working, and I finally reached him.  By the time they did the C-section and I recovered, my aunt, my sister-in-law were there.  They told me how beautiful he was, red hair blue eyes.  Etc.  But it was Christmas time, and this particular hospital NICU was on a different floor.  I was not allowed to leave the floor without someone with me and he was not allowed to come up without someone with me (because of the C-section) I finally got to see my son after 5 days.  (His daddy never showed up, because he never received the message that I had given birth)

Finally get to come home from the hospital, and let me just say that a newborn a 5-year-old hyperactive boy and I was given out.  I made very bad choices in my life and not even a prayer to God for help, guidance and/or love I was lost totally.

By 6 weeks., David had pneumonia twice already and then ended up in the hospital.

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This was my wake up call.  To hear my baby in another room screaming from spinal taps, and IV’s and whatever else they did to him, I realized I had to wake up, be a parent and realize that my children needed to come first.

Then I get sick, with a devastating skin disease (yes there are those) and ended up with blood poisoning and was alone again and not able to parent right.  My oldest son, was my lifesaver, he took care of David, took care of me, and took care of our home.  He was amazing but just too much to be given to a then 6-year-old.  But by this time my mom was diagnosed with terminal cancer.

So in a period of 6 years, I got married, had a baby, divorced, sister completed suicide,  married, pregnant, divorced, had a baby that was in NICU and then a baby that was seriously ill, I ended up seriously ill,  and a mother terminally ill then got REMARRIED (to the 2nd one again) and mom died, then…,. Husband was diagnosed with leukemia.

For several months on end, my children again had no parent with them. They lived with relatives again.

 

Okay, fast forward 20 plus years.  I am now the mother of 4 (my husband had two) and I am trying to be the best parent I can be.  I am in their life, I am madly in love with them, and I am so proud of their adult lives and enjoy my children.  They are such a blessing to me.

After years of learning disabilities, basketball games, cub scout and boy scout meetings and camp outs, and playing in the dirt, learning new things, struggling with chemistry, struggling with life choices, etc., my boys and daughter are the 4 blessings God has gifted me with that make my life so amazing

Then add in the 9 grandchildren.

I am so extremely blessed that my children still love me.  I have broken the cycle that we were in as a family.

I am continually amazed and #SurprisedbyMotherhood

Because as the mother of adult children, I can honestly say that I am so proud and so in love with those 4 Gifts from God.

I cannot even put into words how much I love them

 

Now the book Lisa-Jo Baker’s book Surprised by Motherhood, teaches that all moms will be #SurprisedbyMotherhood.  It’s what you get out of it, then give back that IS the gift.

Always He knits together what is separated, fractured, to create wholeness

I am encouraged by this book, but even more encouraged by the Gifts from God of motherhood, separation, reconciliation, and wholeness

It wasn’t pretty by any means, in fact it was downright dirty,

But now it’s whole, we have our issues, we have problems, we love deeply, but we love

Here is the trailer for the book Surprised by Motherhood.  I give this book 5 stars… IF I could give more I would!

 

Thank you Jesus for the gift of Tara, Brian, Paul and David.  Thank you for the gifts of my parents and for the gifts of teaching me what wasn’t right.

I may not can change what happened in their lives, but I can change what happens In THEIR kids’ lives to be that loving, kind, Memaw, that the kids can run to and take sanctuary is my #surprise

Because God gifts eternal forgiveness I know I can’t make it right, but I am forgiven.

 

Please get your copy of Surprised by Motherhood and know you will be blessed forever.  Your life will change from the words written on the pages there.  I have learned that no matter how messy it was, now it’s blessed by God and being a mom/Memaw is all I ever want to do

Purchase your copy of this book here

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Get your sample of the first three chapters here

Sample Chapters

 

(copied from Lisa-Jo Baker)

Top 10 reasons moms are saying you should read this book:Because you need something to read when you are locking yourself in the bathroom for some quiet time – Angie click to tweet

  1. It’s a heart-to-heart from a friend who “gets it”- the hard, the hurt, and the heights of this mysterious messy miracle called motherhood. – Katie click to tweet
  2. Because no matter how old you are or how old your kids are, it still feels pretty fantastic to have someone tell you that motherhood (and you) deserve a medal, a superhero cape, and likely, a chocolate sundae. – Rebekah click to tweet
  3. Because it’s a reminder you’re doing holy work & also it’s OK to cry a bit when they get out of bed AGAIN.  – Alia click to tweet
  4. Because sometimes you need your friend to sit you down and tell you that what you’re doing right now – all of it – will build the love in our kids. – Andrea click to tweet
  5. Because it’s better than fried chicken. – Kate click to tweet
  6. Our mothering either comes from our own mom’s or in spite of them – Lisa-Jo’s journey is a beautiful combination of both. – Susan click to tweet
  7. Because Lisa-Jo really gets it… she gets the whole loving your kids and at the same time wanting to throw yourself on the floor and throw a tantrum of your own. – Julie click to tweet
  8. Because Mom’s need a guidebook, to go with their afternoon chocolate, while waiting in the school pick up line. – Kashoan click to tweet
  9. Because in my crazy, try harder life, I need a reminder that I really don’t want this mothering thing to be over. – Lori click to tweet

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Awaken DFW

Watch Priscilla here explain what Awaken is.

https://vimeo.com/86633838

Date: April 8, 2014
For information and registration click here. (registration is now closed, but I have ten more tickets. Just fill out the form below and we will make sure you receive a ticket. Thanks)

(Location)
First Baptist Church Dallas
1707 San Jacinto St
Dallas, TX 75201
United States

Please send me your contact information and I will get you a ticket, or you are more than welcome to go with us and the group we have.

Five Minute Friday Mighty

Mighty

Big, strong, powerful

Mighty

Perfect descriptions for God

Isn’t His love for us so might, so powerful, so big, so strong.

Oh my, I just get so overwhelmed with tears when I think of how He died on the cross for me.

He came , he lived and he died.

That was His purpose. So I would have eternal life.

God gave me all of His mighty love in the form of His son Jesus Christ and I just can’t help but cry

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Offering by Paul Baloche
The sun cannot compare
The glory of Your love
There is no shadow in Your presence
No mortal man would dare
To stand before Your throne
Before the Holy One of heaven
It’s only by your blood
And it’s only by your mercy
Lord, I come
I bring an offering
Of worship to my King
No one on earth deserves
The praises that I sing
Jesus may you receive
The honor that You’re due
O Lord, I bring an offering to you

 

all of this is through His MIGHTY Grace and Mercy

 

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Five Minute Friday

 

(this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)

So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast. It’s easy to join in, just:

Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.

Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.

{And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post} Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url

 http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ } Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!
Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it
Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

Happy Birthday In Heaven Daddy

3-22-1931 my amazing dad was born to Johnny and Pearl Bates.
One of 5 kids and a mischievous, rambunctious young man
One story I’ve always been told is that daddy let his horse out just so he could meet my mama!!
So many more like this!!

Mama and daddy met through the horse then eventually wound up married.
Had 4 kids. Two of which are in heaven with him! As well as my mom!!

Dad was one of the strongest, giving men I know. He would give you the shirt off of his back and the last dime in his pocket

He was strict, very strict but oh how I loved that man

Happy birthday up in heaven daddy!!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY I LOVE YOU

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Truck Pictures with Prices

1999 Dodge Ram V10

we will not sell the truck outright – I am disabled and will not pull anything.  You must do it all, so bring your tools!

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Please make me an offer if you don’t like the price.  Everything is negotiable

Pictures are as follows (if you click on the picture it will open up to a bigger picture)

The Transmission is good on this as well as some other parts under the hood, I personally couldn’t get it open so you will have to come look at thos

Back Seat Door Panels Lights Mirrors Receiver Hith Side Bar Side Steps Tailgate Tires

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Five Minute Friday – Crowd

Crowd

Noisy, Many, Jumbled, People, – Scared

Crowd

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I despise crowds.  I get very anxious, start having palpitations and get very subdued, then end up in a panic attack usually.  Now this is a crowd where I don’t know anyone though…

Church, Sporting Events, that kind of thing, I am okay.  But put me in a crowd of people (to me, a crowd is two) and I literally lose it.  Yes I am agoraphobic.  

Let me stay in my little home all day long, order everything I need from the internet, go out to church, anything for my kids or grand-kids and dr’s appts (which send me over the edge also)

Crowds to me are the enemy.  They take me to a deep, dark place, that I have no control over, no matter how deep I breathe, no matter how much I count, no matter how “zen” I get.

Okay, now you know I am agoraphobic and get panic attack.  What do I do?

I pray.  The ONLY way I could get through anything scary to me.  Crowds, Elevators, Heights, Going Under Anesthesia.  Anything like that….  The unknown.

Aren’t we so blessed that God is a safe place, known, he loves us. 

I know for me, without God, I would never live through any of this….

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)

So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast.

It’s easy to join in, just:

  1. Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
  2. Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
  3. {And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post}
  4. Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in.
  5. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url  http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ }
  6. Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link.
  7. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky.
  8. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky.
  9. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!

Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

 

 

 

Best Hot Sauce Ever

when I was in school, we HAD to take 2 sciences.  State Texas said we did.  Yes, only two!

I took Physical Science one year then took Biology.

I hated everything about my Biology class, the subject matter, (pun intended) dissecting, experiments, the time of the class (right after lunch) blech., can you imagine.  eating lunch, then going to dissect a frog.,

Everything that is but my teacher.  Mr. Larry Chambless

He was an incredible teacher.  Funny, quiet, reserved, Christian.

I never really realized what a great teacher he was till I was out of his classroom.

He also made the BEST hot sauce I’ve ever had.

Mr. Chambless’ Salsa recipe1 32oz Hunts Tomato Sauce

2 – 16oz stewed tomatoes

Small Cilantro Bunch

2 tbsp minced garlic

1/2 medium onion

2-4 pickled jalapenos

1/2 tsp salt

1/2 tsp sugar

1/2 tsp cumin

1/4 tsp pepper

Blend ingredients together. Enjoy.

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#SurprisedbyMotherhood

You will be hearing a lot from me about this.

This is a new book by Lisa Jo Baker.

I have had the pleasure of reading the first three chapters of this book!  Boy what a ride!  This book expresses so many emotions in just the first three chapters, that I cannot wait to read the rest of it.  The launch is April 1st and you can get your copy here

Look at this cover, isn’t it beautiful!

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once you have preordered your book, you can get a signed book-plate by following the directions below

To get your signed book-plate just follow 3 easy steps:

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  3. Provide your name and mailing address in the body of the email (so sorry but this offer is for United States residents only) and we’ll send a free book-plate to the first 300 responders (one per household)

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MY #SurprisedbyMotherhood Story
I thought I was the only mother in the world that didn’t want to be a mother.  When I laid my eye on that first redheaded, brown-eyed baby boy, I knew that he was my new role in life!  As time went on and life changes happened, and we grew together,, I knew that the love I had could not be shared.  I was too selfish and my son was way to enthusiastic about life.  God had other plans.  I became pregnant again, this time, I was 26 years old, going through a divorce and devastated.  I KNEW I couldn’t care for another child, and I KNEW I was too selfish to raise another child.

God blessed me with a beautiful redheaded blue-eyed baby this time.  And while his birth was traumatic (premature) and I didn’t see him for 5 days after his birth due to just total mixup at the hospital.  Things just fell apart, it was at Christmas and then my doctor left town, etc, etc.  I was too naive to understand what as happening.  My mom was out-of-town when I had him, I was alone, my husband wouldn’t answer the phone for me etc, etc, etc,

God finally placed us together, mom got there and my sister-in-law and when I woke up from the C-Section, my mom and dad, had managed to reach my aunt and she was the first person I saw when I woke up from the C-Section.  God’s plans.

While I know that God’s plan for me included thee two beautiful babies that grew up to be very independent, handsome, strong, young men.  Who now are building their own lives with their own families.

My husband and I also managed to get back together and added his two beautiful children to the mix, and now I am a mother of 5(including my niece)  and grandmother of 9!  God’s Plans!

That’s what Lisa’s book will give you.  The insight into her life with a weaving of God’ amazing plans!!  Isn’t he amazing!!!



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St. Patrick’s Day Giveaway: Win a Kindle Loaded with 26 Free eBooks

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Corporate Church

I love church.  I actually love MY church very much.

Through a serious of devastating things that have happened lately though, I am very disillusioned with “Corporate Church”

Our church has been through some major growing pains, as well as staff transitions.  However, God is still abounding inside the family of this church

It’s growing still, it still offers many of the programs that we have always offered.

My thoughts and feelings are as simple as this

We need to go back to the basics.  Start over.  Bible, Praise and Worship (without the Bells and Whistles) and Prayer.

Go back to trusting God to lead and guide the worship, instead of having it all laid out in front of us.

While that “formality” is sometimes a good thing.  When you are in a stressful time within your church family with staff changes, resignations, etc, etc, etc

Getting back to the basics, brings you home, back to the “Heart of Worship”

Five Minute Friday Mar 7 Willing

Willing

disposed or consenting; inclined: willing to go along.
cheerfully consenting or ready: a willing worker.
done, given, borne, used, etc., with cheerful readiness.

 

Willing

What am I willing to do?  What am I willing to give?  God gave His SON, Jesus Christ.  Only Begotten Son!  How much more love can you give?  He gave me all.

 

What am I willing to give?  , My thoughts turn to Lent and the idea that you should give up something you love, to become closer to God and spend time in prayer and reflection.

I know for me, this time is a time of introspection and servant hood.  Not to anyone, except God.

I enjoy being able to spend my days giving back.  Being in the word.  Studying more.  I am so blessed that I can do this.  There are someday I get extremely frustrated with not being able to do as much as others, however, then I realize that I have such an abundance of blessings.  BECAUSE I can spend my days as much as I can With Him!

 

Become willing to study, Willing to Learn, Willing to pray, but most of all Willing to Love!

 

God gives us great strength through His mercy and grace.  Be willing to submit!

 

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

 

(this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)

So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast.

It’s easy to join in, just:

  1. Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
  2. Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
  3. {And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post}
  4. Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in.
  5. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url  http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ }
  6. Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link.
  7. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky.
  8. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky.
  9. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!

Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

 

 

 

Five Minute Friday – Feb 28 – Choose

Choose


Choice, choices, choose, choosing

Choose

I choose GOD
There are so many things in our lives that are difficult, They are hard decisions, life decisions. Things you must research, ask questions, ask others, read reviews
Choosing GOD is as simple as John 3:16

For God So Loved The World – He loves us. No more, no less

That He Gave – just gave, no questions asked on His pard

His Only Begotten Son – the one thing in life that He loved more than us.

That Whosoever Believes – that’s it, you just need to believe

Shall Have – no questions, no maybe, SHALL HAVE

Everlasting Life – forever and ever and ever, double infinity, infinity and beyond…

Isn’t that awesome!!! Choose God, live eternally!

I CHOOSE GOD!

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

 

 

 

(this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)

So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast.

It’s easy to join in, just:

  1. Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
  2. Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
  3. {And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post}
  4. Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in.
  5. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url  http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ }
  6. Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link.
  7. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky.
  8. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky.
  9. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!

Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

 

 

Word Filled Wednesday – Feb 26, 2014

What verse has God laid on your heart today?

         wow, what verse,?  I would have to say James 1:12

12 Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, 

which God has promised to those who love him. – ESV

My family and I have been under Satan’s attack over the last few months and it has accumulated with the beating down of Satan… I have a cousin, that is such a Godly man, who is transitioning into an active dying process.  They don’t think he will last through the weekend.

How I adore this man.  I am rejoicing that soon he will be at Heaven’s Gate!!  Singing and c and Rejoicing at the feet of Jesus!!!   The Crown of Life…  can you only imagine!  What Heaven will be like.  When those Pearly Gates open as you step into your eternal life!

What a blessing and one even Satan can’t win over, no matter what because God is steadfast, he asks us to be steadfast and with each trial he gives us enough…

Because HE knows exactly what enough is!

Isn’t that amazing!  That God is that one truth.  Every day, Every Hour, Every Second!

In honor of you Jimbo!  I love you forever and always…1920033_10203425744710769_795549608_n

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It is time for our Woman to Woman Word Filled Wednesday Link Up. We desire to connect women of God with one another and encourage each other in Christ. So grab a cup of coffee, sit back and visit a few blogs. Be encouraged and share your own stories in their comments.

Use the hashtag #w2wwordfilledwednesday! 

Three rules to this link up:
1. Must be a {Christian} faith post.
2. You must link back to W2W somewhere in your post.
3. You must visit and comment on at least one other blog in the link up.

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Five Minute Friday – Feb 21 – Small

Small

vast, gynormous, huge, 

Small

This  huge, vast, gynormous world that God has given us, the beautiful stars, sun, moon, ….. the universe.  My world feels so small.  Insignificant.

Wow, can you imagine having HIS view of our world?  We may look like little worker bees running around just doing our jobs, getting through the day and focusing on the task at

hand.  He gives us this beautiful world to be in and all we have to do is just focus on HIM.  Gynormous, Vast, Huge….God… How can you not imagine the universe as this vast domain

when you think of God  How powerful and awesome He is.

 

But again, I know for me, I feel so small, so minute, so insignificant in this world.  Then I think of the commandment He has given us.  Go tell… GO TELL

Through God all things are possible….  The world becomes a very small place when we all take His commandments and follow through.

Think of how small the world would be if EVERY single person knew about Jesus Christ and His promise!!!  People loving each other, People sharing the word, People caring.

Wow can you imagine?

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

 

(this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)

So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast.

It’s easy to join in, just:

  1. Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
  2. Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
  3. {And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post}
  4. Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in.
  5. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url  http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ }
  6. Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link.
  7. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky.
  8. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky.
  9. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!

Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Word Filled Wednesday

What is your favorite verse in the Bible?

I can think of so many right now.  some of these are my very favorites.  Understand these are not even remotely close to all of them, but well face it, I can’t place the entire Bible here.  God has so many words for us, for so many life aspects, how can one NOT love the Bible.

If you have never read the Bible through, I strongly urge you to.  The path I am using is this one in Women’s Guide to Reading The Bible in a Year  A Life Changing Journey Into the Heart of God by Diane Stortz.  It is the BEST reading plan I have ever ran across.  I am so thankful I have found this plan and am reading the Bible this way.  Thank you LORD for your promise in each word!

this has been one of the most fulfilling years I have had and I fully believe it’s because I am in the Word, if not daily, almost daily.

God is good!  He has great thing sin store for us and the only way besides prayer that we can find them, is to read His word!

Proverbs 3:5-6   Trust in the Lord with all your heart,  and do not lean on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge him,  and he will make straight your paths

Phil 4:13:  I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Phil 4:6: Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Eph 2:8: For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—

Gal 5:22: But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,

Jas 1:2: Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,

Jas 1:12: Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

Jas 1:3: because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

Rom 8:38: For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,

Rom 8:39: neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Heb 10:25: Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

#w2wwordfilledwednesday! 

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 It is time for our Woman to Woman Word Filled Wednesday Link Up. We desire to connect women of God with one another and encourage each other in Christ. So grab a cup of coffee, sit back and visit a few blogs. Be encouraged and share your own stories in their comments.Use the hashtag #w2wwordfilledwednesday! 

Three rules to this link up:
1. Must be a {Christian} faith post.
2. You must link back to W2W somewhere in your post.
3. You must visit and comment on at least one other blog in the link up.

Legacy and Emotions and add in some Junk

I love my dad.  He was an amazing man.  A man of his word.  A man who would give you the shirt off of his back. Would do anything for anyone!

It’s been almost a year since he passed away.  November 3rd will be one year.  It has been a long, sad year.  I sometimes don’t know how I am going to make it through the day without hearing his voice, or getting his advice, or just hearing him “be dad”

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This is the end…. The end of a legacy.  Daddy.  Royce Lee.  RL.  Uncle Royce.  Papa  What a fantastic legacy.

However, trust me, no one wants your junk

I have vowed that no matter what, my children, have the extraordinary right, (it’s a promise and in writing) – I have nothing of value!!  Throw it all away!!

In all seriousness, I am glad that this season of life is over (the estate part) because it brings out emotions that families should never have to go through together.  Anxiety, sadness, joy (that’s a good one), sheer elation at stuff you can find like old love letters.  and anger..

Emotions run high during this time.  People get their feelings hurt.  People come together.  It doesn’t matter, if it’s an emotion, you probably feel it during this time.

I think it’s another practical joke my dad wanted!  He was good at that.

So when it’s all said and done and it’s all over, you never dream that the last emotion you can have is emptiness.

Trust me, I would never want my dad back on this earth in the shape he was in.  But seeing the last of his things go, is not something I was prepared for.  I wasn’t ready for the emptiness, the sadness the overwhelming grief to come pouring back.  The tears are here.  The sadness and grief are like it all just happened again.

Do your kids a favor and get rid of your junk!

(it took me a while to be able to publish this)

I wrote it the day I sold the last of dad’s stuff.

But only now, do I feel comfortable enough to publish it.

SELL YOUR JUNK or just get rid of it!

Five Minute Friday – Feb 14 – Garden

Garden

Mom and Dad

Garden
I can only look at a garden and think of my parents. (it seems I am always writing about my parents) They were the best gardeners. They had food for us all the time out of that garden, tomatoes, onions, peas, beans, corn, okra, it didn’t matter, what it was, if they could grow it, they tried.

There was nothing better than coming home to a home cooked meal that mamma had made using all of our own food that we had grown right down to the last little pea. The steak, the eggs, the chicken, all of the veggies out of the garden. Now the dessert was usually because we picked in someone else’s garden!

Those kinds of things are just too rare nowadays. People don’t grow gardens like that. I know my daughter in law wants to grow food and have a garden like this. I certainly hope she gets too! I will just have to sneak some seeds in with her! :)

Seriously, I love getting fresh tomatoes and onions from our neighbors, as well as squash and cucumbers!
I think a trip to Farmer’s Market is going to have to be made as soon as I can. Hmmm
What can I cook???

 

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

(this is from Lisa-Jo Baker’s Blog that explains FMF)

So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast.

It’s easy to join in, just:

  1. Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
  2. Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
  3. {And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post}
  4. Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in.
  5. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url  http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ }
  6. Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link.
  7. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky.
  8. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky.
  9. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!

Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community

Same Time, Same Day, Every Year

I had the unpleasant experience of going to a big box store today. On Valentine’s Day. it reminded me of Christmas Eve. Everyone running around, like chickens with their heads cut off, looking for that last-minute gift to give to a person to show their undying love.

Wow… you wait to the LAST minute, LAST day, LAST hour, to get something for the person that you vow that you will love for the rest of your life and with all your heart! Mind you, I wasn’t there at 6 am this morning, I was there at 4 PM this afternoon, February 14, 2014. Valentine’s Day (almost over, actually, less than 1/2 way over)

The point I am getting at is this… This day, like Christmas, Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, Halloween, etc. you get the point… Steady, never-failing, ever the same…. we as people are exactly the same…. every year, we never change, waiting till the last-minute to do everything… because we are either lazy, complacent, I dunno..

I am so thankful that God is never faltering, never-failing, never MOVING.. He s always the same, the same love! Isn’t that amazing! That we go to him and we always know that he will be there… always!!! What an amazing promise that is!

To me the verses that come to mind are Jeremiah 29:11 and Ephesians 2:10. You can look them up yourselves. Jeremiah 29:11 says that God knows the plans He has for us (not just our names). Ephesians says that those plans were laid out in advance. Now, we just have to listen and learn what those plans are. He is calling us, are we listening? – Bob Marshall, “Paul Baloche – The Same Love – YouTube.” Insert Name of Site in Italics. N.p., n.d. Web. 15 Feb. 2014 <http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FCNROdV_Lgs&gt;

The calendar is laid out in advance and we stumble around and miss appointments, miss dates, miss holidays, but the thing we have for certain, is God’s Unfailing Love

The Same Love

Every Day

Every Hour

Every Second

Amazing!

 

Five Minute Friday, Feb 7 – Write

Words,

Thoughts.

Words… Write

What to Write

Why to Write

Where to Write

When to Write

Who to Write

All these questions.  All these words.

Who I write about, depends upon circumstances.  Things that make me smile, laugh, cry, hurt.  It’s not just who,

but it’s also what

When do you write?  I write all the time.  When I am reading, watching TV, playing with the dog, on the phone, it

doesn’t matter.  If there is a pen/pencil and a piece of paper, I am doodling, writing or drawing.

Where do I write? I write anywhere and everywhere.  It doesn’t matter.  I love to write, draw, doodle so I will do it

anywhere

I write because it makes me happy, I write to release, I write for for fun, I write to make other’s happy, I write,

because my heart needs to pour out and that is the only way I feel comfortable.

What to write?   I will write about anything that I feel some anxiety about, excitement about, scared about, or any

other emotion.

Writing is a passion, While my grammar stinks, my grammatical makeup stinks even worse, and being able to make

a pencil flow, or my fingertips hum, it doesn’t matter.

I just want to write.

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

Wow, I’m late again….  I love to write, and I have no gift, so that means, that you can write too!!!

Five Minute Friday (from Lisa’s Blog)

::
So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast.

It’s easy to join in, just:

  1. Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
  2. Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
  3. {And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post}
  4. Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in.
  5. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post urlhttp://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ }
  6. Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link.
  7. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky.
  8. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky.
  9. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!

Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community.

Five Minute Friday Jan 31 – Hero

Heroes

Wow Heroes

My Heroes

What do you think a hero is?

Someone that can save the world from the ice freezer like on Batman, or the cowboy

rides up and just whisks her

away to the sunset, like#howmanywesterns EVER!!

I feel that a hero is someone who perseveres through all odds.

Major car accident that cripples your body for life, lose a son, lose a daughter, worked

your fingers to the bone so

we  could have everything we wanted and needed..

Was there when we got home in the afternoon (NOT SAYING those that aren’t are not heroes) this is about my

heroes, every game, every event, took us to church, Taught us about the MOST important Hero ever, God.

My parents.  I have never seen two people go through so much tragedy and still be so grounded in the Lord.   I am

so grateful my parents were the ones God gave me.  Their life prepared me for my life.   Thank you God!!

Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. “Honor your father and

mother” (this is the first commandment with a promise), “that it may go well with you

and that you may live long in the land.” Fathers, do not provoke your children to anger,

but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.  Ephesian 6:1-4

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday (from Lisa’s Blog)

::
So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob over here.

We write for five minutes flat. All on the same prompt that I post here at 1 minute past midnight EST ever Friday. And we connect on Twitter with the hashtag #FMFParty (It stands for Five Minute Friday Party).

No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

It started because I’d been thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.

So now on Fridays a group of people who love to throw caution to the wind and just write without worrying if it’s just right gather to share what five minutes buys them. Just five minutes.

Your words. This shared feast.

It’s easy to join in, just:

  1. Check what the prompt is on my Lisa Jo Baker’s Blog.
  2. Write a post in only five minutes on that topic on your blog.
  3. {And if you don’t have a blog, no worries! Just leave your writing as a comment on my post}
  4. Link over to Lisa’s blog and invite friends to join in.
  5. Select the permalink to your post {so not your blog url http://www.lisajobaker.com but your post url http://www.lisajobaker.com/2012/07/five-minute-friday-2/ }
  6. Using the blue linky tool at the bottom of Lisa’ Five Minute Friday post enter your link.
  7. It will also walk you through selecting which photo you want to show up in the linky.
  8. Your post will show up in our Five Minute Friday linky.
  9. Be sure and encourage the person who linked up before you!

Our most important requirement for participation: There’s really only one absolute, no ifs, ands or buts about it Five Minute Friday rule: you must visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community.

Five Minute Friday

- See more at: http://lisajobaker.com/five-minute-friday/#sthash.XHpHDbGy.dpuf

Five Minute Friday Jan 17 Encouragement

Encouragement. 

What is it for?

Encouragement

 

I don’t know a person alive who doesn’t like to receive encouragement at any given time.  It is

something as simple as a smile on the face next to you in the elevator, or as complex as that person who

is there while your heart breaks into a million little pieces and tells you, it’s going to be okay.

Encouragement is giving your child that extra ten minutes you wanted to yourself, but you look at their

face and realize, thy need you more.  Encouragement is when your spouse is feeling very down because

work just isn’t going right and you let go of your plans to stay home and make sure you do something to

bring their spirits up. 

Encouragement is that faithful dog, meeting you at the door, thinking, you are never coming home

when all you did was check the mail.

 

See, encouragement comes in many ways, shapes, forms and colors.  It’s just a glimpse, or a wide open

view of the heart.

 

God encourages us to be like him in every way. 

 

Psalm 46:1-3

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.  Therefore we will not fear, though the

earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,  though its waters roar and foam and

the mountains quake with their surging. “Selah”

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

#FiveMinuteFriday

I wrote this post in just five minutes. With little to no editing. It’s part of what we call Five Minute Fridays.

Linking here with Lisa-Jo Baker for #fiveminutefriday

You are very welcome and warmly encouraged to join in.

 

Five Minute Friday Jan 12 – See

See

where do you see, what do you see, 

what does God give us to see

See

What can I see from my view.  I see the beauty of what God’s gifts have given me.

The Rain, The Sunshine, The Rainbow, The clouds, Puppies and Dog, My beautiful grandchildren, My beautiful children.

My husband.I see the love of a parent and a child, A couple that’s been married 67 years. A Dr healing his patient.  The luxury of modern medications healing the sick.

The minister in the pulpit, speaking the truth.  His flock that follows him in trust and love.

I see the word written so very long ago that tell me the story of Jesus

“….and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth.” Acts 1:8

Five Minute Friday
Five Minute Friday

#FiveMinuteFriday

I wrote this post in just five minutes. With little to no editing. It’s part of what we call Five Minute Fridays.

Linking here with Lisa-Jo Baker for #fiveminutefriday

You are very welcome and warmly encouraged to join in.

One Word for 2014

Trust.

To trust Him more and let go, to Trust Him that he can and will offer to me

(I might just not like it) to trust myself more and be true to myself and never

jeopardize my

beliefs/ethics/morals again.

Proverbs 3:5-6.

trust-in-god

He’s got my back and got me covered!!

trust11

 

My one word this year is Trust, instead of a resolution, or resolution(s).  I am choosing one word to

base my year on.  My life, my spiritual being, my emotional being, my health, everything.  

Trust.

What is your one word?

Five Minute Friday Jan 3 – Fight

Fight

scary, struggling, survival

Fight

what is so significant about the word fight.   It frightens the heck out of me.  Although I fight for what I think is right, I fight for my opinion to be heard, I fight for others when they aren’t being heard.  It still frightens the heck out of me though.

I get scared, scared of what I might lose, even though that fight is in me.  I know I might be wrong in my delivery….  but…. that still doesn’t stop me.  

So I fight.

I also fight to survive in the world because of the depression and anxiety that I have.  I can lose my nerve over anything.  I can become a quivering, rolled up ball in the corner of the room by just a statement someone makes or a thought that runs through my head, so I fight daily to beat the struggle.  

However, I know that neither fight is right.  God says, do not be afraid.  Do not be boastful or proud or angry.  (not in those words of course) but still, the message is the same.

The fight is hard.  To keep my self above water ever day.  I have that on my mind all the time.  The fight is one I will have for the rest of my life, however I KNOW that no matter what, God will lead me through this and HE will fight for me if I just let him.  I have to let go and let Him

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

#FiveMinuteFriday

I wrote this post in just five minutes. With little to no editing. It’s part of what we call Five Minute Fridays.

Linking here with Lisa-Jo Baker for #fiveminutefriday

You are very welcome and warmly encouraged to join in.

Vivid Brushstrokes

Vivid Brushstrokes: The Overlooked Reality of God in Our Everyday LivesI want to give this 10 stars!
This book has such a creative nature in it! I love the artistic descriptions, from car parts, to dental floss, to drinking water. This book is so refreshing to read about everyday, normal things, and how you can turn anything into a lesson about God’s love for us.
Mr Borden did an amazing job in Vivid Brushstrokes, of describing these everyday objects into artistic, but still technical pieces of God’s love drawing from his own life experiences, using humor, seriousness and everything else in between!

I loved this book so much, I want it in hardback with illustrations.
What a beautiful book that would be!

Author’s Website

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Five Minute Friday Dec 6 – Reflect

very late, but here it is!

Reflect

today, I reflect.

on me, on life, on family, on thanksgiving, on visits,  – reflect

I believe that the visit I had with my son this past 10 days, was probably the worst, possible visit we have ever had.  Although being with him, seeing him safe and having that connection of daily interaction, was so amazing as a mom… I ruined his visit.

I have anger issues.  Major ones.  I don’t know why, but lately over the past few months it’s been horrible and getting worse.  I don’t know what all I am angry about, I’m just angry.  Which is not Biblical at all. 

That in and of itself is enough guilt for me.  However, add in the fact that I ruined his visit, makes it 1,000,000 times worse.  I wasn’t angry at him ever.  Just angry.  I took it out on everyone around  me.  I hate this, I am angry at myself for this whole 10 days. I drove a wedge between us, that  may never be repaired.  

The reflection I have is that I love my family with all of my heart.  I adore them.  Would lay down my life for them…

I want to apologize to all of them and at least try to start making amends for my actions.  Reflections on myself are always very hard.

I don’t know how to make it better, I don’t know where to start, except to say I’m sorry.  Pray that God will help me get through this and pray above all that he/they can forgive me.

As I Reflect tonight, I know that I have the most amazing family in the world.

I love you all, to the moon and back and infinity and beyond

I am so very sorry for the way I acted.

I pray that we can get through this and get back to a good place

Reflect

Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday

#FiveMinuteFriday

I wrote this post in just five minutes. With little to no editing. It’s part of what we call Five Minute Fridays.

Linking here with Lisa-Jo Baker for #fiveminutefriday

You are very welcome and warmly encouraged to join in.

Thanksgiving Blessings Day 30

Day 30

Today I am thankful for Jewel, Jasmine and Jayden being here with me.  And E.  And Roscoe…And Uncle David and Jason and Peeps!!!

Courtesy of the children in my world today!!

Thank you Jewel, Jasmine and Jayden for penning my blog todayIMG_4233

http://www.crayonmarksandtigerstripes.co

http://www.crayonmarksandtigerstripes.com/exploring-identity/

this is great as far as exploring your own identity. Do you have a negative body image? read here to help dispel the rumors.

a great 10 week study on “who am I’

quit wearing a mask!
^LH

Testing something, ignore this! ^LH

Testing something, ignore this!

^LH

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