I have been going to therapy almost 7 mths. December 1st is my last day. While it is a celebration to me, it is also a scary thought. I’m losing my security blanket. My network of “goto” that I have had that I can always know that no matter what is going to be a way of accountability.
I’m not talking about my church because that’s a different kind. That’s separate from this.
This is the accountability that makes me responsible for my self-esteem daily, makes me understand that I can choose to put up boundaries and it’s okay to say no. And that’s okay. Just that’s okay.. No explainations. Just simple solid boundaries.
Assertiveness, verses Aggressive, and that no matter what I cannot change anyone, I can ONLY change my reaction to them.
And above all, it’s all about attitude, (now this is where the church comes into it)
and today my therapist shared this wonderful message by Rev Charles Swindoll
The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think, say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company, a church, a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.
We cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you. We are in charge of our attitudes.
LOVE this!!! Now as, I am processing out of therapy, and realizing that I will no longer have my security net, I have to understand, that I had it all along. I have Jesus. I was just looking in the wrong spot. When I chose to look the right way. And realize that my attitude needed to change to the realization, that I can do NOTHING without HIM and that my attitude is what is stopping me from seeing HIM.
It’s not Him… I am the one that moves. He is the constant. He never falters, never wavers. It’s me that does.
I am not the constant here.
And in HIM I can change my attitude to become faithful and become more constant in choosing to start each day with my eyes on Him and then walk each minute of every day with HIM