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When things go wrong, oh and they will go wrong… You have to do a couple of things
1. Either let it all go to God and trust that He will handle it,
2 Or deal with Satan’s outcome…
Let me give you some back story first. Since 2001, I am type-2 Non-Insulin-Dependent- Diabetes or NIDDM
Recently it has become insulin dependant IDDM (in the last two years). So not only have I been dealing with many doctors appts but at some place on either foot for the last two years, I have had a diabetic ulcer. This happens because of a break down of the skin, inconsistent blood sugars daily, infections, and just a myriad of reasons how it can happen. I have also had osteomyelitis twice in my right foot.
Because of this, my right foot has been very susceptible to diabetic ulcers, and starting this past spring, I got a very small I mean we are talking extremely small blister between my pinky toe and the next one on my right foot. In doing so, I learned a lot about what can and can’t happen. In a matter of days, this very small sore, turned into a sore that was 1 cm x 8 cm and it tracked all the way to the bone (the deepness of it)
This was in February. I changed dr’s during that time, from an Internist PA to a full-blown Podiatrist and Endocrinologist, so that I could get more aggressive about my care and prayerfully come back off of insulin and as many other complications that went along with the ulcer, and the high sugars and the bad A1C .
Because of this, I have been to the Podiatrist, every other day for the last 4 mths and have also had a minor surgery where he took some bone out, so it wouldn’t be rubbing up against my other foot, which was part of the problem to begin with.
After the surgery the surgical site, being so stinking small, healed so quickly, we were all so surprised. However the ulcer didn’t heal. Dr.’s, Wound Care nurses and I were just bumfuzzled about what to do. We kept treating it with Silver Alginate, we used a WoundVac and many other things. This kept going on, from Feb until the first part of June, and I have finally had enough. I had been in a DH Walker boot or a surgical shoe for almost 2 years for one reason or another from diabetes ulcers. Also off and on for almost 4 years on one foot or the other for some reason.
The ulcer I had kept getting bigger, and bigger, never losing any tracking and never getting any smaller, only bigger, no matter what treatment we did. I even stayed up 3 days in a row because they put a woundvac on it and the woundvac wouldn’t stay plugged in. So I had to hold the plug into the machine just so it would stay running. We didn’t realize this until we went to plug the machine in on my foot. So anyway, it has been an ordeal over the past few years.
I was on many prayer lists all over the country and I KNOW people prayed for me, close and far away. They prayed on Facebook, in Text, in email and called me and prayed with me, and then prayed in person. I can’t tell you the number of people who prayed and I knew God had this under control!!!
So all this being said My son was getting married in Seattle on June 13th. Of course that meant a plane ride (actually 4) and going and going. I just wanted to make it till then. The dr and I came up with a plan of action before I left, and he had one more trick up his sleeve and then I made a very conscientious decision that, included amputation. I was ready, made peace with losing a body part and knew after I got home from a 8 day vacation, I was going to lose a toe (while it’s just a toe) I’m pretty attached to my toes!!!
It was a spur of the moment week while we were up there, and if they called to do something until the wedding day, it was one of those, be here in 30 min or so. I did NOT want to deal with wrapping, unwrapping, explaining and all the other stuff that goes with having a sore on your foot. I did use my scooter while I was up there. And I went from pushing myself in a manual wheelchair using my feet (which made everything worse) to using the scooter, so that friction of pushing with my feet was gone and that was a major plus!!
DISCLAIMER: i DO NOT RECOMMEND WHAT I AM FIXING TO JOURNAL. IT IS NOT WISE, IT IS PROBABLY ONE OF THE STUPIDESET THINGS I HAVE DONE IN MY LIFE MEDICALLY SPEAKING. DO NOT FOLLOW MY WAYS, AND PLEASE SEEK YOUR DRS ADVICE FOR EVERYTHING. THIS ISN’T ABOUT MEDICAL CARE IT’S ABOUT THE POWER OF PRAYER
Well during that vacation, I took a very minimalist approach to the care of my wound, for one thing. I was just flat-out exhausted to doing anything with it. i kept it clean, I kept it covered in silver and a band-aid. and I prayed, I prayed hard. I prayed to God for several things,
1. Please let me have the strength to dance with my son at his wedding (had prayed for that one for months)
2. Please God if it’s your will, do not let the amputation go through, but heal my foot.
3. Please just give me good blood sugars and to stay under control during this time.
okay. now the wedding. We left TX on June 10th, for 8 days. When we get to Seattle, it is okay temperature wise, but quickly rises up into the high 80’s low 90’s. i had just hit TX weather in Seattle. So not only did I have to worry about my foot, but my breathing also. When it is very warm, I can’t breathe at all.
My shoes that I brought to wear up there are leather tennis shoes. They don’t breathe at all. So right then and there, I decided to let my foot stay unwrapped and put the silver alginate on it with a band-aid.
Seriously Even after knowing the outcome if my foot didn’t get any better, or it would get worse.
I wore flip-flops to the wedding and really did nothing to protect my toe other than just keeping it clean and taking my antibiotic. LITERALLY “Less is more” way of thinking. The result was the same. It was getting amputated. Or it was getting well.
Because I believe so much in the power of prayer. I once again prayed to God for His will to be done, for Him to heal me, completely or to make it abundantly clear that amputation was the way to get a healthy foot.
Well, you heard that old story, tell God your plans if you wanna make Him laugh.. He did a big ole belly laugh and said “watch this”
When I went to the doctor this friday afternoon. My foot had almost healed itself! from a hole in my foot that tracked bone deep, and at least 1 cm wide to practically healed, I was so blown away. I was honest with my DR and told him EVERYTHING.
The only thing I didn’t do is go in the Ocean while I was there. I figured that would even be pushing God’s limits a bit!! But I did go in a hot tub for a few minutes, and wore my foot open most of the time, unless I was going to be in public, then I covered it with a band-aid mostly so it couldn’t be seen.
By the time we got home, my feet were swollen with fluid because of the long flights, I didn’t take fluid pills and my toe was very red indeed.
I knew I needed to rest my foot, keep it propped up and get the swelling down. I did just that for two solid days, took my fluid pills and proceeded to rest in my way.
I get to the dr on Friday afternoon and as they are cleaning the wound, the nurses are just talking about how good it looked etc, and then Dr. A came in. He was so surprised! Especially after I told him, I did the less is more option.
Here are just a few of the amazing things God has done.
1. The sore no longer tracks to the bone.
2. It has shrunk.
3. AMPUTATION IS OFF THE TABLE
4 God, in His almighty, infinite ways, has answered all the prayers for this one ;little toe.
I had a great vacation, and even though I didn’t walk much thanks to the convenience of a scooter, I did pretty much what I wanted.
and I DANCED WITH MY SON AT HIS WEDDING!!!
(sorry for the crappy picture, but this is the best we have)
What an amazing gift God gave me in doing so. I used to pray, God keep me alive till my kids are older, God keep me alive till they graduated High School, etc, etc, and always a new goal.
Now I pray God, I don’t know what you want me to do, but let’s go, I am game!!! I know God has some amazing plans for me in the future and I am not sure what they are. I am SO ready to see what He does have in store for me.
and I tell you this,
1Thessalonians 5:16-18 16 “Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus”
Thanks for reading this far and remember If he can heal one sore foot, think of what he can do for your heart!! If you want that same healing in your heart.
read this. God will help you also!
Question: “What is the sinner’s prayer?”
Answer: The sinner’s prayer is a prayer a person prays to God when they understand that they are a sinner and in need of a Savior. Saying a sinner’s prayer will not accomplish anything on its own. A true sinner’s prayer only represents what a person knows, understands, and believes about their sinfulness and need for salvation.
The first aspect of a sinner’s prayer is understanding that we are all sinners. Romans 3:10 proclaims, “As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one.” The Bible makes it clear that we have all sinned. We are all sinners in need of mercy and forgiveness from God (Titus 3:5-7). Because of our sin, we deserve eternal punishment (Matthew 25:46). The sinner’s prayer is a plea for grace instead of judgment. It is a request for mercy instead of wrath.
The second aspect of a sinner’s prayer is knowing what God has done to remedy our lost and sinful condition. God took on flesh and became a human being in the Person of Jesus Christ (John 1:1,14). Jesus taught us the truth about God and lived a perfectly righteous and sinless life (John 8:46; 2 Corinthians 5:21). Jesus then died on the cross in our place, taking the punishment that we deserve (Romans 5:8). Jesus rose from the dead to prove His victory over sin, death, and hell (Colossians 2:15; 1 Corinthians chapter 15). Because of all of this, we can have our sins forgiven and be promised an eternal home in Heaven – if we will just place our faith in Jesus Christ. All we have to do is believe that He died in our place and rose from the dead (Romans 10:9-10). We can be saved by grace alone, through faith alone, in Jesus Christ alone. Ephesians 2:8 declares, “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God.”
Saying the sinner’s prayer is simply a way of declaring to God that you are relying on Jesus Christ as your Savior. There are no “magical” words that result in salvation. It is only faith in Jesus’ death and resurrection that can save us. If you understand that you are a sinner and in need of salvation through Jesus Christ, here is a sinner’s prayer you can pray to God: “God, I know that I am a sinner. I know that I deserve the consequences of my sin. However, I am trusting in Jesus Christ as my Savior. I believe that His death and resurrection provided for my forgiveness. I trust in Jesus and Jesus alone as my personal Lord and Savior. Thank you Lord, for saving me and forgiving me! Amen!”
Did you pray the sinner’s prayer and truly understand and believe what it teaches? Please comment below so I can pray for you also! Start reading your Bible! If you don’t know where to start, either start at the beginning and read it like a book, or the the Book of James or the Book of Luke.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read my blog and rejoicing with me!
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